Sunday, August 06, 2006

hopelessness

people tell me everything will be okay but i just can't see it. day after day, it's such a struggle, putting words together, putting the little steps together to form life. i've heard it a thousand times before, take it one step at a time, focus on just the next thing that needs to happen. but if we lose sight of the whole, what then? there's got to be something to work towards,right? something whole and worthy and good and not just a composite of all the little things day to day that we struggle to do. somehow i thought when i turned thirty i would be okay. but there's no guarantee of anything. there's no guarantee anything, ever, will be okay. when i should be reaching out i find myself simply retreating further and further away.

1 comment:

xtinehlee said...

though you feel you are floating away, i'm here. whenever you decide to float closer. :)

i've been reading montaigne's essays--there is an essay on friendship that says the greater friend is the one who reaches out...and thereby gives the other the opportunity to be a friend. it's very interesting.